Sunday, November 30, 2008

Fuck it. Begin…

So, I find myself at a point in my life where I’ve lived long enough and accomplished too little.

And today I begin anew with this blog.  I’m going to use it as a bridge to move me in a new direction, towards a place where I’m better positioned and more likely and able to actively create the best life I can.

Now, don’t get me wrong here…it’s not like I’ve done nothing in my life.  In fact, most people would likely judge my life as successful in many ways.  I am, in fact, seen by most people as a dynamic person who balances a good position in “Corporate America” with more artistic and creative pursuits.   But I’ve not yet been able to really breakthrough into the life I dream I can lead.

You know what I mean.  A life where I have more control in terms of my place in the world.  A life that channels my personal talents and abilities and does so in a way that creates stability and financial rewards and personal fulfillment.  And transitions me from a place where insecurity is the incessant undertone of a job that pays the bills but doesn’t move my life into the direction of my dreams.  

With each passing day I realize that there is simply too much opportunity and resource available to me that can support the accomplishment of that dream for me to not to begin to create action…that can lead to momentum, which can allow me to live that life.  

This blog is meant to be a support and framework that can facilitate breakthroughs in my life, and hopefully a few in yours.  

For me, the first thing is to use it to help me finish a writing project that I believe can change my life’s direction to align more with what I wish my life to be and what I believe it can become.  I hope it will.  But hope is like adrenaline. It comes in waves and when it recedes you can feel like shit.  But the best times of your life are filled with it.  And it seems like you had a whole lot of it when you were younger.     

So, let’s just say fuck hope.  You can’t count on hope.  You’ve got to do something (or, sometimes, cases not do something) that moves you in the right direction.  That takes you one step closer to your dream.  Until you’re close enough to grab it.  And then one day you find yourself not where you ended up but where you wanted to be.

I hope you’ll check in and check out my thoughts…and check in with yours.

William

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